Feel it.

Insomnia hit so hard. Cannot remember when was my last time sitting alone with my laptop, playing my favourite music and start typing. It’s a long night,everything gets silent. Was on a call with boyfriend, until he fall asleep and snoring right now. Part of my life. We are hitting another level, playtime is over, future is the matter. 

We were once unbeatable. Many humans envy about this gheyships. Long journey we had, until a turning point. Memories stays. It is harder than a relationship. How much had gave in is uncountable. Talking back old time, still smiling, because it is all happiness. That is what to keep and remember. Honesty play a big role. It’s sad that we fall in the end. We made a different choice. It then sink, left un-solve. Rumours and gossip destroyed, no ones know the fact of it. 

From time to time, changing environment caused, new friends came up and passer by left. Changes in life is unpredictable. I put you in priority, remember in mind that best friend never leave because we are unbeatable. And, overused the privilege without knowing. Best friend is not family, they have the rights to set them free anytime, they can leave, family is fixed, we meant to be staying together no matter what. What is it now is not worth it, but we all change. No one lose, but grow. To be alone. Getting another people like you in life is impossible. 

Heart breaking experience that I never know it would came. 

If I have a chance, I would try my best to make things right. 

Loves,

Mel

Blissful.

Just when some good rumours/news came to you. You found out your mates actually hold promises, and doesn't need a single reminder about it. Not talking about it, because we all remember in heart. I couldn't denied to be feeling blissful at time like this. Thank you for all the care that you had showered me all these while. :')



Loves,
Mel

I fall, I grow.

I'm in the mood to write, about me. Life goes a little bit random lately, completely attitude I had a year ago in overseas. It's seems happening, from the outside. All thing in hard time, at the moment, to me. I decided to make a move, again. Attached my resignation letter last week, heavy-hearted at the same time, it seems mixed feeling other than being excited about it. Out of my expectation, as usual. All thing of me, always not in my expectation. So, what now? Decided to take this three month short course about business marketing and management, get my ass back in dad's company. Get things done, and earn. Because I can wait no more to build my own career, I'm desperate already. The urge of want! Sounds weird but true. And, place I decided to stay for my next three month located at Kampar, small little peaceful town. Let's do this right! 

This complicated affair is finally come to an end. Didn't know it came so soon. I'll take it, easy. We all move on, it wasn't bad after all. Let it all heals, and good memories stay. 

That strong fragrance, the laughters, the talks, the lifestyle, still there. We all did not change, 
when we meet. 

Till then, to be continued.. 



Loves, 
Mel

After so long.

Heeyyyaa, life's been really busy. I've settled down in Penang currenty, hope to be long. Loving this city loads, perfectly fits me. At the other hand, it's close to hometown. Kid that never want to leave home! HAAA! It's my third month working, experience had a lot been collected, all in hand! :D We will see what's next to move on, sounds good? 

I'm in a situation of too much to do, too less of time. Thank god, not that kinda messy situation that I used to be. Let's make another six months productive until next year begin. Always have this thing in my mind, can I make money faster and time pass a little slow? Time has been flying, wait for no man. Everything is well planned until the end of the year. I can't wait to owe something which belongs to me. Well, step by step. Till then, until my next updates. It will be really less updates, I know. 


Lots of love,
Melissa Tan 

最浪漫的事

The lyrics just exactly reflects what's in my mind. 

Move along.

Hi guys, I'm good, life inspired and amazed me. Just got back from Singapore! Feeling so great after my final trip. So, whatssuppp guys! Doing good? I'm here to update about whats happening around. 

I'm currently working for my dad, and freelancing a little. I've decided to get a job and work my ass off like a working adult out there and having very typical working life as well. I just want to start completing my long life list. So, we see what's next after this. Ciaoz guys! Live life to the fullest! 



Lots of love, 
Melissa Tan 

Just me.

What I wanna say is, I AM REALLY HUNGRY RIGHT NOW BUT I CANNOT LET MYSELF GO TO THE KITCHEN AND GET ANY FOOD OTHER THAN WATER! I AM SO FAT! UNTIL I DOESN'T LOOK GOOD IN ANY SLEEVELESS CLOTHES ANYMORE, NO MORE!

Cannot stop myself from typing with cap locks. I could only release my anger and frustrations here. Pizza is disgusting! EWWW! I'm giving up on foods, YES I AM! I actually hate working out, but I want that abs and that shoulder! OMG! SO MUCH HARD TIME TO DEAL WITH IT!

I've got like two dress for chinese new year, seriously two? This is no good. I don't have a new bag. Crap! And what? I don't have any new fragrance nor cosmetics. RIGHT! And no new shoes? I've got nothing for this chinese new year. This doesn't seems fun. I don't like it! I'm not ready for this celebration :( 

I haven't got a job. I've no idea where to work. I'm lost. My dad is gonna kill me if I still haven't got into any interview after this stupid chinese new year. I have to get my ass off from this home and go to work outside. RIGHT! Just any company for that one year hopefully. And then, I'm coming home and handle all thing. Fineeeeeeeee, life has been decided. So, how about my dream? I always wanted to launch my own brand, hey how about that? WHAT NOW? Property doesn't seems my thing but chances of earning is way higher! My realistic level has been increasing, as in I am that overspend lady all year. Obviously, wealth has been crossing over dreams. Bye dream, until I can afford you. 

I hate my hair, even after treatment, still grassy. What is wrong with my hair? Goddamnit, I've got no money to spend on you anymore. Life has been hard! My nails looks like shitttttttttzzzz..... And why the hell is my skin so dry? Hate everything!

I'm putting on braces in to weeks time. I am scareeeeeeeee! Who cares who cares, I'm fighting over you stupid dentist!

So much hatred in life and so less determination and motivation. Crappppppppp....... Is anybody having the same feeling like me? Oh noes! Kill me now. bye!

Like the way she is.

It's melly jelly love.

2014. Being told too much you mean to someone. 

I get so happy when you talk to me. It's funny how a few words from you could make me feel a million times. Unlikely to be true. I have to say, you stand a lil in me. 

Couldn't stop questioning myself, where did all these insane courage and bravery came from? Timing has been wrong. It was unexpected. I couldn't believe, we got nearer. 

It was quick, and contain ups and downs. I thought I just had a roller coaster ride. You showed your imperfections and perfections, that brings in somehow frustrations, somehow joyful. 

You treat me like an adult like a kid. You've got your rules, dreams, life. Still, doubt all thing in you. I don't know you well. All thing from you about me, isn't positive. I see so much obstacles in these, and I'm weak to fight. 

Thinking about thinking. I'm enough with now. Best moments always happen when they are unplanned, like what you did. 

Loves,

Melissa Tan 

Off to the races.

Back to lana del rey. Her video clips never fail to inspired me. Great!