Don't ask me

I easily get frustrated lately for no reason. I somehow hate people for no reason. I sometime just don't feel like talking. I need my own-self-time most of the time. I got really anti-social lately. I'm figuring what to do in life. I'm searching a very specific way to live in. I'm finding a book which suits me. I'm looking everything I want. Walking on a busy street, everyone heading their own way with different face expressions, their face can tell what's up with them, each of them having different life. And me? What's up with me? I'm not good enough in anything. Not even a bit! another seven months to figure things out and bring something back.