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Wanted to go to bed early today, ended up blogging here cause I have overloaded stuff appear in my mind which make me can't sleep at all. I have chinese song fever lately. Playing chinese song, munching chips and sipping pepsi at this rainy cold weather. Too much memories flashed by, whole load of endless life chapter I had, in the past. One thing is, I hate myself for remember everything of you. I don't purposely note down or remember what you said, but yes I can mention whatever you told me of you. Friend who know me well can tell how forgetful I am. I'm worst, I don't remember things. This is miracle for me remembering so much of you. But, I shouldn't have doing all these. I got hundreds and thousands of compliment saying staying in London in awesome, great, wonderful lifestyle. We, looking at the same sky, breathing the same air in this planet. Trust me, this is not an easy country to live in. The harder I goes, the more I learn to appreciate. Hate myself being so superficial in the past, if I have a chance, I would learn to feel them. What I own now, is not from me. I should have understand and feel my surroundings and apply them into my art. It represent me, from me, it have to be meaningful. If one day I can be sophisticated, I would be thankful. Love to write so much lately, my blog is always my best listener to bump everything here. 

How are you there dude? Internship is just around the corner....
We don't talk. Which maybe you never want to talk to me at all...

I have so much so much wanted to share and tell...

I told myself that would be the last time I'm talking to you and I did it...
I can control in whatever way...
But, I don't want to get wasted.... 
Well, I still believe in faith....
I sounds stupid already.....

You know until today I still cannot believe myself doing, thinking or even writing these. I cannot trust myself for thinking of you. How I hope is just illusions like what always happen on me in the past.