One upset day

Class today, it's magazine design. Second week of class, presenting ideas and showing progress. I thought I was clear with what I gonna do, went to class confidently with my sketch book and stuff. Entered the class and saw people presenting their works and some of them is working on screen already. They have amazing ideas, good presentation and the best part is why they looks working easily, happily, randomly with no worries nor stress at all? Sudden thoughts; why am I feeling stress and worry? Is this the difference between Asian and British? Sigh... 

Presented my ideas, got some feedback from the tutor. She is the only tutor I like the most in this university. Others are just so mean and straight forward. #scaryshit She is fine with my ideas, perhaps?! BUT I DON'T THINK I'M GOOD ENOUGH! I GOT NO CONFIDENT TO GET A GOOD GRADE OR EVEN PASS UP A GOOD WORK. I miss Raffles already :( I know I've to grow up and not rely on anyone and here goes my life. 

I'll be visiting few places tomorrow all alone, to really refresh my mind and make everything clear. Research, take photos, sketches and the exact ideas. I have to get myself out from this messy situation and back on track. Didn't wants to feel guilty spending my parent's money and did nothing at all. That will be whole loads of regrets and sorry. 



Regards,
Melissa Tan