Had a hair cut and it cost me 43 pound. I don't know why I cut my hair. I just got this sudden feeling to cut my hair and I randomly walked into a salon for no reason. That was like myr 200++ for a hair cut? Seriously?! Never had this kinda expensive haircut in Malaysia before. Feeling guilty for spending so much. The times five currency is always in my mind. I DON'T KNOW WHAT CAN I DO! Hate it so much when I have to concern so much whatever I wanna do here at the United Kingdom, because it's not my home. Honestly, I don't belong to here. It is hectic, realistic and crazy. For no reason, I'm feeling so frustrated. Cannot find the reason and that's make me even more frustrating. Feeling so dumb at the moment for having so much mixed feelings. I had one day hating everyone everything every moment for no reason. WHY I HAVE SO MUCH NO REASON! Don't you think that is so weird. Ohhhh goshhh, I'm getting weird and weird and that is FOR NO REASON! First presentation in class and I did it real bad. I look like those Indonesian in Raffles (that I always hate seeing them presenting cause I don't understand what they trying to tell) and now I looks like them in front all these British peoples. All of sudden, I can't talk, I don't know what to talk, my mind goes blank. I just feel like running out from the class. I'M SO MADDDDD AND SAD FOR MYSELF! SHAME ON ME! Fuck it, I have to do it no matter what!
Frankly, I miss you. I don't know what to do. No ones dare to give in the first step. Feeling like a secondary school girl, missing a guy? WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? Give my heart back to me and stay away from you. I hate it when I'm feeling hanging apart, for no reason :(
Lots of loves,
Melissa Tan
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