A changed!

Seems like things changed. Had a talked with my bro yesterday and he strongly recommended me further my uk studies this year. I AM SO LOST RIGHT NOW!
I wonder. Where is my confidence? Where is the me that always can make my own decision? I doubt. I doubted myself. I couldn't answer when the brother asked can you survive in london all alone next year?!  
Ya, my plan is to go for photoshop short course then a lil bit freelance job and help my dad with some stuff. This might takes my one whole year. And now! What? Parents said is up to me. My mum said go next year and we go travel this year :D My bro want me to go. My heart didn't want to go but I'm afraid I might face a lot of problem if I go alone next year. WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?!
Feeling so helpless but I've to make the decision on my own. I know is pointless to ask opinion from others but duhhhh I just want everyone to ask me stay in Malaysia and everything is gonna be fine even you're alone. Even I know alone is not gonna be fine. BUT PLEASE!
I don't feel like leaving here. I'm not ready yet. My skills is like poor?! I don't know what to do. what to do. what to do. It's so annoying I knew it. I just couldn't settle down. Feeling so stupid at the moment. Wtf moment right now. right now! 
My mind is like you gonna be all alone next year. THINK!
My heart is like nooooooo. go next year!
I might sounds annoying at this time. fml fml fml.
I thought I can decide everything my own and I'm wrong. so wrong. 
EPIC FAILED!