Beginning of 2012

Hi readers, it's been a long long time I'm not writing. My last post is 10th of December which is last year. Sounds so long, it's actually last month! HAHA :D I've been busy, really busy. As usual too much to do, too less of time. Graphic Design student! Spending limited time everyday on the line, this is why I don't get to update my blog :/ Here come the hardest part when quite sometime i never blog, where to start? what to blog? I have to keep myself writing more often to learn more :) Hardly blog every single thing, would be random-life-post again =.= *as usual*

Started my semester break on the last week of december, back to hometown once I passed up all my assignments and stuff. Spent my christmas eve and new year eve in hometown. Boring? Not at all, it's a peaceful celebration. I simply love my hometown, no jam no nothing, simple life, so peaceful. I just feel like staying there everytime I finished rushing my assignments. Hometown is always the place for me to chill, to get myself out of my hectic life in KL. Didn't know why lately I'm so easily to stress up, easily get panic. Everything can be solved! I did nothing in this break, other than eat , sleep and hang out. Nothing else. Fully re-charged myself for my final semester. Time to graduate, to go for internship, one step closer to reality. I cannot believe, why time past that fast?! It's like blink of eye, and it past. Just like that. This is why I always try my best to appreciate, to care. Lately, Im so forgetful. I'm getting worse, I didn't know why. Even I take vitamins but they don't help. How can I change myself to be not that forgetful?! hrmmm! Feeling so guilty for spending parents money, everytime! Trying so hard to save but I never success. Shopaholic mood always there when I'm in a mall, and when there are sale! I always tell myself no more second time but the second time is forever there. No matter how many time I promise I just couldn't make it. I seriously didn't know what happen to me?! Can somebody lecture me? You wouldn't know how long I've been finding a way, a way to solve. I'm such a bloody loser in this!

What am I gonna do after graduate? Holding my cert and searching for job all around KL? I couldn't imagine how am I gonna look like that time. Thousand millions people agree that being a designer will end up get nothing at last. What if I'm one of them? All of sudden, I don't believe in me. I don't have faith sometimes but I'll self-lecture and I'm alright after that. How-weird! My mum said I'm weird, she said I'm too random, I don't have plan. True, I'm random but I have plan mum! Just I'm un-sure with my plan. I need more motivation and confident! Yesh confident! Alot more please, then would be good :)

I'm thinking, how much time I spent on my phone everyday. What if I use all these time to do some reading, then would be wonderful. Reading is good! And I don't actually do my reading lately. Nope, since I'm in KL. I never read books :( Duhhhhh! I'm still looking for a book called " Act like a lady, think like a boss " They are hardly found, must be a nice book that's why. I only read graphic design books and they are all more to visual. I'm improving my visual imagination but my languages going down. =.=! Time to read!

Alright, nothing much for this post. All I'm thinking now is to work hard on my final project! Put everything behind and Hi final project! Ohhh yaaa, Welcome 2012! I know it's a lil bit late to talk about this haha! Anyway, my biggest wish in 2012 is to get in a good uni and study overseas! It's a good year ahead!

XOXO

Melissa Tan