i'm actually =(

decision is not the only matter i'm struggling for months .

cover things by things and i thought it's alright .

it is actually not when he come into my attention once again .

i tried . i forced . i struggled .

someday i asked myself , why you need to struggled and think about it and you dont know does him feel the same .

it's like you are the only character in this situation and he doesn't give a damn .

is it worth for you to do so ?

alot of them asked me give up on him .

i always put my decision at first without hearing others .

chances is not always there .

you have to know the consequences before you make a decision

i spilt everything out to someone yesterday night .

and yeah , i guess thats it .

that is the final decision that im struggling for months .

i've made a very wise decision.

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you've to stand at your side and think before you think about others . you've to balance everything . you've care your own feelings . you've to be selfish . you've to be self-center sometimes . you've to be a little bit realistic . you've to have your own back-up plan no matter how many people out there tell you it's okay . you've to get to stand alone when you're facing problems but not hiding somewhere . you've bring out yourself from troubles . you've to . . . . .

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m.e.li.ss.a