thoughts

like i used to say , human is a creature that can't be explain . let's talk about friends today . someone told me once friends , forever friends . for me , this ain't true . I got too much experiences on this , friends can be helpful but sometimes problems . They can be very good with you in few days times , they can change in one day time . Accompany you , hang out , chatting , heart to heat talk and that time you starting to realize , wow , such a good friend and maybe you would list them in your best-friends list . Days by days , too much character come in and things started to change . You would have some negative thoughts and feelings . These may cause you and your friends far apart or less contact . Why human to human so damn complicated ? Someone told me , i've changed . Sometimes we will feel like friends around us change and we started to talk about it with others . One thing , they change their attitude or lifestyle ? Make it clear because this is a big different . People change because of the environment around them , friends around them . No doubt , everyone does without you notice yourself . This is very normal , in fact do they change their personality ? This is a big question mark . Some would be easily influenced and completely change , they dont care or give a damn because they never list any rules in their life . Some dont even know there is such things . HAHHH ! They said this is just too much LOL Or maybe they say something not from their heart and try to catch your heart . LOL jugaaa . I realise alot since im here . The 'talking' and 'doing' is different , still they dont feel shame . phewww !

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complicated and totally fuck up

someone told me , just face it with a smile

you can't control everything , there wont be everyone agree with you

you can't lead even you know there is something wrong cause world is too evil

even you know he is not good , still you have to act nothing

good image and relationship with everyone to help you in future

realistic laaaaa . my senior taught me cause they kept complain i too straight to everything zzz learning la weyy

i know study design need to be good with everyone no matter who cause one day maybe you need them but chill la , give me some times please . hahaa

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my lecturer talked about goal setting with us yesterday

yinyi : class , did you guys set your own goal ?

i'm like , wth is that ? LOL

yinyi : melissa , what is your goal ?

me : errr , graphic designer

after i said this , i feel like i'm lying

i dont even have the dream to be a graphic designer

i dont want to be the one with skills , sit there and work with photoshop and illustrator for the rest of my life

i wish to be the one with creative thinking and a little bit business minded

HAHHHH ^^ wish to wish to

i thought of alot of thing lately

somehow i ask myself , how my dad build his business ?

how those business man found their business and work on it ?

how they manage and started to earn ?

hehh , this is way too far lahhh

nahhhh , future path way is just too important

or i'm the one too desperate for it ?

relax relax ^^

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lots of loves ,

melissa tan