thoughts

nothing to say about us

but me , my heart either

the feelings fade away without knowing

i wonder , is this true ?

or i'm lying myself and try to cover from others ?

i meet him few days ago , went i looked at him

i doesn't feel the feelings anymore

i dont feel like hugging him like i did before

maybe he feel the same too

we dont have that much topic to talk about

not the old-us but the new-us

ordinary friends which dont have any relationship or anything

so pure ; friendship

i remember i told my friends that i dont need him i dont care about him last time

in fact , i did .

i still tried to know small little thingy about him

viewed his facebook , read back what we chatted in msn if he chat with me

my stupid little act ; let my laugh right now

this is what you would do when you fall in love

love is so blind , dont ever comment on someone cause you will never know

no doubt ; i cried for him before

it's not worth or not worth

it's not stupid or clever

but heart to heart

you will never know if you didnt in this situation before

man , we tried alot right ?

we tried to discussed and solved

but in the end , still the same

this is fade , i believe in fade

we had come to an end ; a perfect end

your words , your promises , made me smile when i think about it

read back every single article about us , i smile

you did sweeten my heart , you did everything for me

i felt so being loved ; before

i choose to remember all the happy one rather than the sad one

this is memory , we end it without argue and we are still friends

i'm happy that we are still friends but not enemy

we dont blame or anything , just let it flow let it be

dont cry because it happen , be happy because it happened before

we crushed to each other , why not others but you ?

yahh , fade ! i choosed you .

think back the past , how funny the us was

everytime when others asked about you

i'll complained everything to them

my anger , my madness , everything

after think twice , no point for doing all these

and i smile

because i'm the one who choosed you and why i want to complained right now ?

i'm so stupid , immature act

right now , i still confused

am i seriously let go ?

i do hope this time is real

my heart is always the weird-est one

even me , sometimes dont know what my heart want

i admit girls is so complicated

girls is some creatures that hard to be know well

i think if i didnt come KL i wont grow

i will hold him tightly even he ignored me

i see the world , i feel the reality

i survive alone without you or even my family and friends

i finally understand this pharse

' everyone can live without no one '

staying alone outside and at home is so much different

my family support me but they let me go survive alone outside

they let me learn and i grow

i'm afraid at first , negative thoughts all pop up in my mind

but still i have to go , try something new alone

i finally found me , myself after i came here

i will never be the woman that needs love more than successful

i'm not weak but not strong

trying to figure out something that is so-me and show to the world

my biggest dream !

works , friends and family overcome you

tons of works make me dont have the time to text you or contact you

thats why we less contact and slowly , gone

i understand i know why it gone , cause none of us hold it and it gone just like that

as i said , without knowing

this is so naturally

lastly , i hope you are good with your life

maybe i still will mumble to you like lil girl when i see you

hahaha , who knows ?

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lots of loves ,

melissa tan