i've tried to express , tried to tell , i tried and tried to get some attention from you . just wanna get some care from you . but i think thats too hard . since one week ago i felt so alone , like being neglected . i've no idea what make you so busy till you can completely forget about me ! once i feel bad , i'll started to think alot and alot . you cant expect me not to think and act like nothing happen , as i really feel fear . fearful ! so insecure , doesnt feel protected at all . how can i continue and maintain everything when i have such a bad feelings . seriously it really infect my mood . once i woke up , i'll think will him text me today ? will today be a super-good-day for us ? but you dissapoint me again and again . day by day till i feel so down , so plain . i wont be like the past keep asking this and that , cause i know you will late reply or give me whatever reason . doesnt want to blame you about giving me reason , but just too many times . you dont even have one day that free for one hour or even half an hour for us to communicate . you never think from my side . how will i feel when you give me this feelings ? nightmare had continuous for one week , and when i think about what you told me before and your promises . i'm mad . really really mad . question and question , did he remember what he told me before ? he said if i appreciate him , he will make me become the happiest woman . but now ? things turn out to be like this and you ask me to used to it ? i cant even used to it for one day , i feel so suffer . and i dont think he know about this . i remember the first time i told him , he get mad and said that i'm annoying , if you think from my side you will never do so . even you cant completely change but at least a lil bit , its like tell me where are you . simple as that but you dont . you never try to know and you dont respect . my tolerance had cross a limit , you cross my line . you're not you anymore . the past you and now is so different . your indifference shocked me . seriously the past you is really the awesome man ! we used to talked , laughed , shared feelings , alot and alot , you gave me lotsa memories . i feel so blissful when i'm with you , but too bad . things turn out to be like this . i cant hold you tightly anymore , and i think i'm not the one who can control . relationship is a two way traffic , if your partner dont co-operate you will really feel tired and alone . and started to think wrongly . i'm a stupid-lil-girl with naive thinking . you told me , one love you full heartedly if not just let go . so-dont-want-to-let-go , but i think i'm not the one anymore . its so hard to continue loving you . since you dont change , my decision will make the shortest pain i think , if maintain i guess i will get more hurt . you said i never think from your side , i keep complain and complain make you feel damn annoying , i give you lotsa stress . if you try to know my feeling i will completely hear what you say and try to understand . even i'm scare but i dare myself to lose everything cause i'm fear to get hurt . too hard to hold , even more hard to put down but no choice , since you dont come to me . . . . . its time to put down i guess , its time to get rid of everything i think , its time to let you go . . . its time to its time to , can i say no ? i think i dont even have the chance to speak anymore . keep my love towards you for myself and keep it deepest in my heart .
the last time i meet you is 20th of january
we went xantana for dinner
the last time i meet you
the last time we talked face to face
the last time we joked to each other
the last time i sit your car
the last time i hold your hand
the last time i lye on you
the last time i hug you
the last time i feel your heartbeat
the last time i go playground with you
the last time we hang out
the last time mekk
the last time tickle
the last time punch you
the last time touch you
everything will only be the last
the bliss had gone far and far
no longer a far distance from me
dare not to expect anything anymore
dare not to - dare not to
once my phone ring , how i hope thats you
how long can i get rid of all these ?
is it one week enough for me ?
i hope so
what can i say still ?
good luck for you
best wishes for you
hope you enjoy your life =)
how i hope he mend back now ? stop dreaming girl . haihh
good to be your friend
when will i meet you again ?
when can we hang out again ?
guess no chance anymore =(
lots of loves ,
melissa
(tears drop when i end this article)
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