pop-out-thoughts

it comes in so suddenly, it would gone in seconds if i dont quickly write down .

its something unexplainable or maybe hard to explain , there is no words in english that can be describe . how weird ?!

how can human have so many thoughts and feelings in one time ? complicated and blur

there are lotsa lotsa issues comes up from the end till now

i'm afraid ; i put it aside ; not to think - not to touch

but still the problems is there

once you didnt solve , its like a file save in your brain waiting to be solve . simple as that

i'm stubborn with own opinion all the time

i was thinking everything that i think is RIGHT

in the other way , i'm wrong . things doesn't goes that simple

i'm the looser ; failure

i thought i can forget and be happy . i was so wrong

i can but not completely succes with that

someday my heart still missing those days

memories do exist ; it can't be erase. don't be stupid girl

it's not as easy as 1 2 3 as you think

let it be a mark , in MINE !

.

i missed . why don't i follow as what he said ? i want but i'm scared

you hurted me , throw me aside . i'm the one stand up myself . all the way alone ; or maybe i have friends around me , but still your shadow is there

forcing myself to give up . till the time i had gave up , and you come back

guy ; don't be that naive

things wont follow completely as what you want

the host is not you anymore ; not me too . no-one hosting

you leave a deep hurted-mark in my heart . i hate you in fact

in heart ; there is no hate but tears

i'm not mad but full of dissapointment

your action make me dissapoint

speechless with you you did and said

u n b e l i e v a b l e

.

from the day i decide to gave up . i told myself 'the first and the last'

not to betray me ; my own . not to look back anymore

sometimes i almost go into your words and feel being protected again instead , but my mind keep remind me , its just too hard i guess

the biggest dissapoinment make me dare not to look back

thousands - millions - billions - zllions thoughts make me till now ; still the same to say 'no'

you dont understand and i dont want to explain again

we're out from this kinda topic ; tired and exhausted when i think about us

the anger and sadness

it's stated there forever-dead

i dont wish we would get back together

i wish for nothing ; let it flow , let it go

when it comes to the end , you can't wish for anything but protect youself

be what you wanna be

.

.

.

.

.

.

-----------------------------------------------xoxo. melissa